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[15 Apr 2008|07:35am]


well, i got my morning started out on the right foot!
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not surprised. [07 Jan 2008|07:47pm]
87% Barack Obama
84% John Edwards
82% Chris Dodd
81% Hillary Clinton
81% Bill Richardson
78% Joe Biden
76% Mike Gravel
75% Dennis Kucinich
47% Rudy Giuliani
38% John McCain
34% Mitt Romney
31% Mike Huckabee
30% Tom Tancredo
26% Ron Paul
22% Fred Thompson

2008 Presidential Candidate Matching Quiz
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[02 May 2006|09:08pm]
[ mood | good ]

peanut butter jelly time!

so, my journal is friends only now from here on out.

i know i said i wouldn't do it, but i think it's just easier. people don't have to worry about me and i don't have to worry about them.

comment if you're really that interested in being added.

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i know the music's fine like sparkling wine, go and have your fun [01 May 2006|08:44pm]
[ mood | good ]

yea, so i updated a lot today. oh well.

i just got home from work which is exciting because i thought i was going to be there until 11 or so. HOORAY FOR MORE TIME TO STUDY AND PASS MY CLASSES.

i also called and talked to hannah because i heard a song that reminded me of her.

mama got me this nifty little shoe rack. i just have to put it up... and find all of my shoes. i can't find my black flip-flops that i really love. they're from wal-mart and they're so comfortable. if found, please return to angela c/o comfortable feet.

the ride home from work was spectacular. the weather is so lovely and i had the windows down. and where i cut through on graham, i caught the scent of honeysuckle. that may be my favorite thing about summer nights. the humidity is unbearable at times, but that easily recognizable sweet scent takes me back.

mama asked me to go let becky's dogs out because she was going to be at the gym. i remembered this as i was about to pass st. agnes, but made a quick turn back her way to get the keys. i grew up on st. agnes. i passed mema's old house and i IMMEDIATELY thought of the game kristy and i used to play. we would set our drinks on the window ledge and then run down the hill to the sidewalk and wait for a car to come. when we saw one nearing, we'd run back up the hill, take a sip of our drink, and do it all over again. it seems so silly now, but we had great imaginations.

i'm such a happy girl.

the little things mean everything. ah, to be the girl who didn't have a care in the world again... i think tomorrow i'll do that. i'll go take my final and not worry about the outcome. i'll run my errands, and not get mad when someone cuts me off. i'll go to work and not get upset if i get stiffed. i'll come home and sit down with my family. we'll talk about our days. we'll eat dinner and laugh. a bit of a stretch? maybe. i just have too much to be thankful for to focus on anything negative right now.

and i won't let you or anyone else break my smile. HA! suckers.

ugh, i have to study. that kinda broke my smile. ah well, i'm going for a 3.5 this semester and that'll keep me in good spirits for the entire summer!

woo hoo!!

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[01 May 2006|03:02pm]
so, i have 4 more chapters to read (roughly 55 pages), but i have to work tonight. i don't know what time i'll get off because of the stupid playoff game tonight. the grizzlies suck anyway. AHHH.

i wish i didn't wait until the last minute all of the time to do things, but i always do so well that way.

i studied the day before my corrections final and i KNOW i aced it. i didn't study at all for my spanish final and i know i only missed 3 or 4 at the most.

AHHH. i just got a call from someone in an ohio state penetentiary. no, i will NOT accept your call. that just creeps me out.

i'm going to burn a cd, get something to eat, and leave. parking was a bitch last time.
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argh. [30 Apr 2006|06:45pm]
[ mood | blah ]

i'm just at a loss.

i really am.

not only that, i feel like i was lied to all over again.

in conclusion,

people suck. and they lie. and they're not who you think they are. and they're hypocrites. oh, and working with a crap ton of people you know sucks. and when they already have a negative opinion of girls in sororities, wouldn't you make the effort to prove them wrong? humbug. work is for work.

and also, i KNOW i've addressed this before AND i know it was fairly recently, but i will NEVER understand why people cheat on their partners. IF YOU WANT TO GET LAID BY OTHER PEOPLE, HOW ABOUT YOU AVOID BEING IN A RELATIONSHIP? while i'm on this little tirade, people who sleep around ~PERIOD~ annoy me. i mean, it's your body. do with it what you will, but in the end, it's the only thing worthwhile you'll ever have... and you just give it away.

i know sometimes i sound high and mighty when i talk about that stuff, but it's just something i feel really strongly about.

anyway, the past couple of days up until today have been GRRREEEAT. friday night, a group of us went to the bbq thing going on at st. anne's. zach and i got there at 9:30. we heard a rumor that there were free drink until 10. well, we're walking towards the place and the loudspeaker comes on. "LAST CALL. 10 MINUTES. LAST CALL." so naturally, we burst into a sprint to get to the free booze. well, there was this tree hanging out in the ground, you know? just chillin'. i thought i was just going to run under it. i ended up running through it. i didn't see the low-lying branches and they caught my face. ow. i have a nice scratch on my nose. so yea, i decided that i didn't need to be drinking if that was the best i could do. the chicken and pork butt were SOOOO tasty. man, oh man. i was in heaven.

last night i went to a party with thomas. his film/tv classes were throwing a goodbye party for their professor, and he invited me to tag along. i ended up talking to a few people throughout the night, so i didn't feel completely out of place. film kids remind me of the theatre kids from high school though. they're all WEIRD. (i can say that because i WAS a theatre kid.)

i have a final at 8am, but i'm actually more concerned with my exam on tuesday. so, i'll be studying for that lovely gem tonight.

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here we go [28 Apr 2006|07:05pm]
[ mood | good ]

hopefully, i'll actually do it... apologies in advance if i don't. ha.

leave a comment and i will reply with the following:

1. i will respond with something random i like about you.
2. i will tell you what song/movie reminds me of you.
3. i will name something that we should do together.
4. i will say something that only makes sense to you and me (or just me).
5. i will tell you my BEST memory of you.
6. i will leave you a quote that is somehow appropriate to you.
7. i will ask you something that i need to know from you.
8. if i do this for you, you must post this on your journal so you can do the same for other people.

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she ain't revved 'til the rods are thrown [25 Apr 2006|11:01pm]
[ mood | hopeful ]

And I will give them one heart, and one way, that they may fear me for ever, for the good of them, and of their children after them:

Jeremiah 32:39

i'm not much for scripture or psalms... or even the bible for that matter, but this will be with me always... and if you're one of the lucky ones, you know why.

i got an a on the spanish test i got back yesterday. i'm either going to have an a or b in there. i just stopped doing the assigned homework online, but it's only worth 5% of our grade. it was so tedious, i couldn't handle it anymore.

we did our group presentations today in prevention and deterrence. i suppose it went well enough... despite two our group members being better off mute. we'll find out our grade when we take the final on tuesday.

TOMORROW'S THE LAST FULL DAY OF CLASSES!!!!! AHHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!

i can't believe it. HOORAY.

i wish that i could relive the summer that i lived with amber. that summer was full of fun, friends, and discovery. though i didn't live out on my own for long, i really did learn a lot. mema had a stroke that april after i had moved out, and while i was so happy to be out on my own, it made me realize that invincibility doesn't exist. mortality isn't something i had considered until then. i realized that even though i was distancing myself physically from my family, i shouldn't distance myself emotionally.

i remember late nights on amber's bed just talking. we talked about anything and everything. she really understood me and she could read me like a book. i remember having the radio blasting and us singing so loudly. i remember having brendan and thomas over and laughing hysterically about gary busey. trivial pursuit, anyone? comer? kyle?

we were standing in the kitchen one night and we were saying our goodbyes. he held me closely, kissed me, and pulled away. he looked at me with eyes i'd never seen before. softly he said, "angela, i love you." i was so scared and completely taken aback. grinning like a fool i asked him if he meant it. he laughed a little and said, "that wasn't the response i was going for."

i turned 20 that june and celebrated with people who cared and who i cared about. i discovered what vodka and kool-aid tastes like coming up.

i learned to always keep a jack in the car just in case you're in the hood and you pop a tire flipping a u-turn. a couple of days later we almost got arrested for throwing water balloons at hookers. poor kyle was not liked by those cops.

i remember spring river being fun and laughing at all of the drunken fools falling out of their boats and getting tossed by the waves. i lost my flip-flops and got a lovely sunburn, but the stories that we leave there are worth returning for.

poking fun was funny and not mean.

we saw the wizard of oz at the orpheum and didn't realize that we missed the memo about hissing when the wicked witch of the west appeared onscreen.

we hosted a july 4th party at our house. bri's mom said it was boring, and i thought it was the funniest thing. we watched the fireworks down by the river with the rest of the city, but we were the only two people there. we held on as tightly as we could without being overtaken by the humidity, and he promised to be with me forever.

i love summer if only to make memories like those with people who mean the most.

to all of you who can't seem to get past yourselves, i wish you knew what you were missing.

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[24 Apr 2006|01:10am]
[ mood | giddy ]

happy girl, i am.

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[19 Apr 2006|01:22pm]
[ mood | amused ]

these pictures make me happy.

some old, some notCollapse )

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the smile's returning to their faces [18 Apr 2006|01:03am]
[ mood | good ]

well, personally, despite all of the crap, i think some things did get resolved. at least, that's my hope.

the sae swap was fun. bowling = good times, but i love how some people will do anything to be able to have a beer in their hand. honestly.

i never seem to stop worrying about some things and there are some things i never worry about.

some good news is that i have a week and a half left of this semester. i'll have about 2-3 weeks before presession starts. that lasts 15 days at 3 hours a day, 5 days a week... but after june 5, MY SUMMER WILL OFFICIALLY BEGIN.

i'm letting all that is negative in my life hit the door. i am done. done, done, done. life. is. good.

i cleaned my car, in and out yesterday. 2 hours after i cleaned it, a bird had already shat on it. today? more bird shit. stupid birds.

i am just NOT tired for some reason.

instead, i'll ramble.

i love thomas. how's that for rambling? more and more, i'm learning to appreciate all of the small things in life. i don't let things consume me in the way that they used to. i'm trying, anyway. i guess this what old people call... "maturing." i want to go to bonaroo. i want to graduate. i want to get married outside in bare feet. i want to live in a big house and have kids. i want to dance. i want to share secrets and laughs over hearty meals and wine with lots of friends. i want to love, love, love.

i want everyone else to let go of everything. stop doing what you're doing. stop saying what you're saying. stop being the victim. just apologize. move along.

this is almost over for me, but i know what they mean when they say it's just beginning.

stop blaming everyone else.

i hope you find what it is you think you're missing. first, i hope you realize you won't find it in a guy. what i've learned from love is that it's not something you've ever been missing. it's something that's always been there but needed the right moment to flourish. i hope you realize that sex won't fill what you think you're missing. it won't make him respect you. it won't make him want to be with you. it won't make him love you. oh, and it's true what they say about having to respect and love yourself before anyone else will.

oh, and when you realize that what you have is something that could only happen once in a lifetime, my god, nurture and cherish it. don't cheat on the one you say you love.

doing what you're doing because everyone else does it is makes you look like nothing more than a fool.

go to class. learn. there are a LOT of people out there who never get the chance to go to college. take advantage of the opportunity you were given. read a book. ask questions. contemplate.

eat breakfast. it really helps me out.

take the scenic route... even if it eats up more gas and it's $2.71 a gallon.

be nice. sincerely nice.

get married young. grow old together. die happy and fulfilled.

sing really loudly to music. on or off-key, it doesn't matter.

don't take things too personally. laugh at yourself.

hold hands.

most importantly, when your head hits the pillow at the end of the day, know that you lived that day in the best way possible. when you wake up the next morning, do it all over again.

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i'll stay if you want me to [15 Apr 2006|06:49am]
so, i've had about 3 hours of sleep.

forgive me if i'm a bit of a grouch.

humbug.

kyle's great to talk to when reminiscing about the old days. i say that like i've been around a while. oh wait, i'm old.

i hate this stupid journal. i really do, yet i can't just give it up. i've had the damn thing for 4 years. i guess what i really hate is all of my friends having them. it's just funny to me because no one seems to talk to each other anymore. that's actually more sad than anything, i suppose. and everyone talks about being an adult and being mature and whatnot. please. you wouldn't know maturity if it bit you in the ass.

well, i have initiation this morning, and it's going to be SPECTACULAR because i'm always reminded of why i'm here. i don't care how upsetting things can be leading up to this, i love doing this. i only hope that it means as much to the new girls as it does to me. actually, i hope it means as much to everyone else as it does to me because sometimes it just seems so easy for everyone else to be so negative. this is my last initiation as an active which is exciting and sad. i mean, i had a good run, right? you're damn right, i did. i'll always have my sisters. good, bad, and ugly... and it's ALWAYS been worth it.

on an even brighter note, i'm going to lunch with mema, mama, and kristy. good times, good food, and DAMN good company.

thank you for this day because it's going to be a WONDERFUL one.
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so cheesy, but it made me smile a little [14 Apr 2006|01:29pm]
[ mood | geeky ]

As we grow up, we learn that even the one person that wasn't supposed to ever let you down probably will.

You will have your heart broken probably more than once and it's harder every time. You'll break hearts too, so remember how it felt when yours was broken.

You'll fight with your best friend.

You'll blame a new love for things an old one did.

You'll cry because time is passing too fast, and you'll eventually lose someone you love.

So take too many pictures, laugh too much, and love like you've never been hurt because every sixty seconds you spend upset is a minute of happiness you'll never get back.

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it ain't me you're lookin' for, babe [13 Apr 2006|03:39pm]
[ mood | crappy ]

$15.00 for 5.4 gallons of gas? are you fucking serious?

god, our economy blows. alan greenspan, where have you gone?

i've been ill since tuesday. i was feeling better last night, but i woke up this morning and i think my fever's back. i've been so tired recently too.

i'm sure my group hates me in my cjus class.

i'm meeting with elise after she gets off work to talk about stuff. she's decided to be a gamma chi, which is a bit upsetting just because i know how awesome she is on the floor. she'll be a damn fantastic gamma chi, though. i love elise to death... mainly because she doesn't put up with stupid people. she's also just a lot of fun to be around.

i stole thomas's nintendo ds. that stupid pinball game is addictive.

i've got to eat something before i hurl. hopefully, i won't hurl after i eat.

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[09 Apr 2006|01:02pm]
perseverance.

try that on.

remaining steadfast despite opposition.

some people are so quick to throw in the towel. if you ever want it to get better, why would you just give up?

i think perseverance is a word that could change a lot of people's lives... kind of like love.

we try to convince ourselves we don't need anyone. we're social creatures though. we need to know that people care. that's the bottom line.
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stolen from melissa because i'm bored. [07 Apr 2006|12:55pm]
[ mood | good ]

no work and no all-sing make angela a very bored girl.

so, here's my musical autobiography. it's stupid and kind of long.

musical autobioCollapse )

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[07 Apr 2006|01:13am]
[ mood | insomnia ]

i look at you all see the love there that's sleeping
while my guitar gently weeps
i look at the floor and i see it needs sweeping
still my guitar gently weeps

i don't know why nobody told you how to unfold your love
i don't know how someone controlled you
they bought and sold you.

i look at the world and i notice it's turning
while my guitar gently weeps

with every mistake we must surely be learning
still my guitar gently weeps


i don't know how you were diverted
you were perverted too
i don't know how you were inverted
no one alerted you.

i look at you all see the love there that's sleeping
while my guitar gently weeps

look at you all...
still my guitar gently weeps.

[02 Apr 2006|02:12pm]
[ mood | happy ]

i had a WONDERFUL weekend. pancakes, veggie trays, lethal weapon 2, appliance shopping, nintendo ds pinball, and amelie all made for a relexing weekend.

i'd like to reiterate that amelie is a REALLY good movie. i normally get bored with movies that have subtitles, but i really enjoyed it.

mema's birthday is today! 65 years and still kung-fu kickin'. i'm ready for a piece of that cake! yum!

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so kiss me and smile for me. tell me that you'll wait for me. [30 Mar 2006|01:01am]
[ mood | exhausted ]

mid-term grade reports are in and guess who has straight 'a's?!! oh, it's me. between work, school, studying, family, and friends, i don't get much sleep, but i'm so happy that i'm still managing my time well enough to get decent grades.

i finally finished my paper that's due tomorrow. fingers crossed it's what he wants. he said he was looking forward to reading it because my topic was much different from everyone else's. gulp. i'm also happy that i get to recycle this paper for my corrections class. HOO-RAY.

lily's coming down to hard rock tomorrow to fill out an application. apparently, she broke it off with nolan... i had no idea!! it's really sad because the wedding was only 2 months away.

got a lot still on my mind, but i'm trying not let it get me down. i've got good people around me who are keeping my spirits up. i also get to spend saturday playing soccer, and hopefully kicking ass. i get to spend time with thomas later that day too, AND it's supposed to be beautiful. good friends, good boyfriend, good weather. that's a forecast for a wonderful weekend.

only one more mini-paper to write for next week and i have to study for a test in sociology.

just stay focused.

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you can't love too much, one part of it. [28 Mar 2006|10:56pm]
[ mood | crushed ]

i've always believed that character was everything.

i'm just completely baffled.


have you ever felt like you never really knew someone at all?

have you ever turned your head to avoid looking at someone because even looking at them hurt?

have you ever heard a heart break?

have you ever known that things would just never ever be the same?

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